♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
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♥ Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Cherish what you have before it's too late .
Okay I'm updating my blog again because I'm too bored . Hehe .
Didn't attend school today because I've got totally no mood for it , I don't know why . I even stayed up for the whole night ytd because I can't fall asleep :/
Laptop hasn't been repaired , I wanna change my blog songs badly ! And did I mention that I lost all my songs in my phone ? Because I've got itchy hands ! Damn , that's why I can't wait for laptop to be back , I really need my songs back ! :(
Xiangling has been quite down today and she's very serious when talking to me , I didn't want to care because I don't want to think too much but well , at last I failed to do so , I thought over those words she told me . I can't help but to agree with her .
Who's my true friend all along ? Who will be the one who would be there for me when I'm in need ? And if I were to say this , only Elaine and Adeline , maybe . Let's not say about my family . And now Elaine has got her own family , she doesn't really have time for me now . Well , both of them played a big part in my life , I'm not saying that the other pretty sisters of mine don't , yes they do but not as much because they have their own things to deal with too . I can't possibly keep pester them when I'm down , my biggest fear is not relationship , but friendship . I put friendship before relationship because I think that friends are more important , if you lost a boyf you can find again but if you lost a friend , he or she might not be back again . I don't want history to repeat , I don't want to lose another person that's special to me .
Yes I know in life , we have many problems and obstacles to overcome with , but I learned smth , which is "Problems are never ending in life , we just have to suck it up and deal with it . That's how life works ." I'm really contented with my current life now , really , I hope it would just stay like this forever but I know it's not gonna be . Just wish that I would change for the better this time round , no more crying over friendship .
I've specially thank some people in twitter by mentioning them individually , because everytime when I can't fall asleep at night , I would looked back to the past and some people just appear in my mind . They are , LimZigui , MarcusLim , DovenTang , my whole group of pretty sisters , Bokmay , Rachel , Xiangling , Linda and Jocelyn . Love all of them <3
Though me and Zigui , Marcus , Jocelyn drifted , but I still have to thanked them . Especially Zigui and Jocelyn , before Jocelyn appear , Zigui was the one who had a hard time cheering me up , giving me advice and guiding me all along , if it's weren't for him , I guess I wouldn't have come to this far . But after he came back from Vietnam , he totally changed , he doesn't care for me alot like how he used to it , we used to text each other everyday , but now , even if we didn't contact for a week we can still go on with it . He's the one who will always took initiative to text me , he's afraid that smth might happen to me whenever i didn't reply his msg and he would send another text to me . But now , no , we aren't as close as before even though we did contact . He didn't ask about my problems anymore , to be honest , I miss the past him . And of course Jocelyn have helped me alot too , she's there for me when I'm down . Despite me and her had lots of misunderstanding last time , she still willing to stay by my side and pulled me up . Marcus and me drifted is because we didn't contact for a period of time , but still , I have to thank him for being there listening to my rantings even though he didn't helped much . Yes we did contact back recently , I don't know if he still remember that he promised me he won't come and go , maybe he does so he did the first move and text me first . I gotta admit that he's a great listener , I'm not his good or best friend , whatever you name it of course , but no matter what he still did his part as a friend .
Bokmay , Rachel , Linda and Xiangling was the one who accompany me throughout those hard time I had in school , they did not outcast me even though they know my problems in school . Especially Bokmay , she's a great friend I can say , for never leave me alone when I'm in school . She've also helped me with my studies , cared for me and keep on reminding me to study hard because she wants to see me again in sec5 and go for Poly . Rachel and Linda would accompany me when Bokmay didn't attend for school , though we were from different classes , but they would never leave me alone . I got to thank Rachel for allowing me to rant my problems to , and not forgetting Xiangling , although she keep disturb and irritates me , but she's still a good friend and listener . She really helped me alot , she didn't despise me when others did .
My whole group of pretty sisters and Doven are those who I must really hand in to , they know so much of me and never failed to be there for me . They are the ones that can make me cry and laugh easily just by a few words , I really have to thank them , going through thick and thin with me . They are also the one who wants me to be a good daughter of my parents whenever I throw my tantrum to my parents , I never failed to be the "princess" when I'm with them . Love them for listening to all my sorrows and never once complained about it .
I really love all the people I mentioned above , I don't know how long can all my friendship with them last , but I really cherished them as much as I could . I know I may not be their best friend , I may not be good enough as a friend to them but no doubt , a big thankyou too all of them , much loves <3
Ok it's a very long post , you can choose not to read it if you feel bored .
♥ Sunday, August 28, 2011
Regretted.
It's 5.00am now and I'm here posting my blog , I must be crazy I know , LOL ! But I'm really too bored , wanted to order Mac but the Mac just don't wanna pick up the call , online order yet they said can't deliver to my area :( Asked MarcusLim to helped me order and he's being a retarded by calling me and conference the Mac line inside , LOL ! But end up didn't get to eat :( Amanda Wong is currently staying over at my place and she's sleeping soundly beside me now , hehehe . Was talking nonsense with Doven the whole day today , and he's having moodswing after that :/ So I went to disturb others but they fell asleep except for MarcusLim , forever a rabbit .
A long school holiday till Friday ! And after that it will be the start of my mother tongue N level paper alrd :( Goodluck for those who are taking N level too ! Ok shall end here , just to update because RachelChee said my blog is dead . Hehehe .
♥ Saturday, August 06, 2011
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部,我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的 .
It's august now , time passes so fast , 2011 gonna end soon , real soon .
I know again , I didn't post for some time , bet my readers alrd gone . But anw , kinda excited for 2012 , LOL ! Every year saying the same thing , "hope this year would be better" , but shits always happens . Better not , I had enough of those shits . But I'm glad that things turn out to be better recently .
I needa diet , people around me are saying that I've become fatter compared to last time :(
N level is coming , preliminary this coming Thursday . Classmate told me that I should give up on my humanities for preliminary because he thinks that I will flunk it given to my current situation after he taught me :(
Anw , using my phone to update my blog , realised not only my blog is dead , my formspring too , LOL ! Ask more qns leh .
I'm like drifting away from my pretty sisters because of my studies , I hate it . Hope that after my N level everything will be fine again .
Also , I'm like drifting away from Doven too , because of relationships , I miss how he used to make me so hard on the phone and cheered me up when I'm down . Trying my best to salvage it , but seems like it really can't be help . You've been reply my texts slower slower each time . Tell me what am I suppose to do ?
Once bitten twice shy , why am I still so useless ? I should have just keep quiet from the start , I hate it everytime I'm being sucha bitch .