♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
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♥ Monday, January 31, 2011
I LOVE AWESOME BABES ! ♥
I know im fat in those pictures ! BUT SHHHH :(((((
Anw , i've been going down to Bugis every Saturday and going down to town at night for supper with those babes above ^^ They never failed to make me laugh and listen to my complains , ♥s ! Done updating with my phone and now im blogging likea finally . Chinese New Year is coming and im quite excited ^^ , because its a few days of holiday and we gonna have buffet at my place with all my babes and steamboat with them afterwards . Hehe , i always miss hanging out with them when we're going to say Goodbye :( I love every Saturday because i can see them , :D But i was mad tired on last Saturday because i don't have enough sleep :( My whole eyes were red and swollen and i fall asleep immediately once i lied on my bed . Im so keen for next supper ^^
Things has been going on smoothly recently except for some matters , shall not elaborate further . School still as per normal , but im always so tired in class :( Keep on raining recently and i hate it , though its nice to sleep at night . People squeezing while boarding the bus and walking on the street , i dont like !
Had a talk with Xiangling on KikMessenger earlier on , and it has been bothering me since just now , maybe i should really think about it and reflect on myself . And i really really thank her for believing me and be there to listen and tell me what to do :')
And i would like to thank these people specially when im feeling down recently because of some matter .
-ElaineTay , my beloved sister
Elaine , you know im really glad that i have you in my life :) You've been a great sister to me , lecture me when im wrong , encourage me when im lack of confident . Being there for me to listen to my rantings and tell me what i should do . Care for me like my real blood sister , i love your advices because it makes sense and it always makes me tear although im trying my best to control it . I know sometimes i did things overboard but you'll never get blowed up by me , yet telling me not to do it again . I know i disappointed you sometimes and not listening to you , but you still talk to me patiently . You're one of the best person i've ever seen , stay pretty . Love you ! :)
-AdelineOng , my beloved sister
Ah qian ! Same thing , im also glad that i have you as my sister . I remember there's a time you helped me with discipline matter , you didnt scold me for doing that but tell me dont repeat my mistake again because that will be the last time you're helping me with this kind of matter . I love your crazyness , you never failed to make me laugh with your laughters and lame jokes ! I always go to you when im being moodless because you will rant with me :) Though recently you've change to like ... abit fierce when you talk to me ? Or issit im being sensitive ? But still , i really appreciate you . Faster find a boyf and get married ! I want VIP seat ok ! ^^ Love you !
-MarcusLim , my beloved rabbit brother
Hi rabbit ! Though we know each other not long , but you'll always cheer me up and disturb me . You're just like a brother to me , i know i did make you angry sometimes because of my attitude , but you still forgive me after i apologised . Maybe you get irritated by my stuffs because i keep complaining , but you still showed concern to me whenever i need someone to talk to . And i really hope that you can win her heart soon , all the best ok ! Remember our promise too ! :)
-Xiangling , my good listener and advicer
Stupid Xiang ! You've been disturbing me since last year ! But i dont find you irritating , really . I love talking to you ever since you can read my mind , know what im thinking about . But slowly i realise that whenever people are feeling down they go to you , but how about you yourself ? Spare a thought for yourself sometimes , when you're upset who will you go to ? You keep everything to yourself instead and act that you're happy infront of everyone . I just want to tell you that you can always come to me , i dont mind being your listening ear because you always be there for me when i need someone who can understand how i feel . Im really really very touched that you believe me when others dont . Remember this , we're classmates , we're friends though we just know each other for 1year plus . Be happy and crazy always , dont bottle everything up if you feel unhappy :)
-LimZigui , my beloved tortise brother
Tortise ! I love your singing ! Haha ! You too , its true that we know each other for a short period of time and we're getting close like brother and sister . You always tell me what to do and encourages me , tell me not to be afraid of anything because this is a part of life and i must go through it . You believe i can do it because you know im strong enough to overcome this , you always told me that you're just 8 digits away , you dont come and go , you'll always be here for me . Brother , dont be sad over a girl that doesnt worth your love , there's lots of better girls outside . I know its hard on you but i trust you , i believe that you can do it right ? I experienced it before , im a weak girl as you know , since i can overcome this obstacles so why cant you ? :) I know though you're scolding her a bitch but deep down your heart you still remember the memories you both had . Everything takes time , trust me tortise , you can do it . Same thing , i'll be here for you when you need me . Be happy alright , :)
♥ Sunday, January 23, 2011
Fucked up mood .
I fucking hate it when i have this kind of fucked up feelings , and i've been feeling this way recently for some fucked up reason . And i mean seriously , i thought this year will be a better year for me but ended up .. -.- Fuck you guys .
Just the start of the year , im sick and tired of everything , be it studies or relationship/friendship . Friends whom come and go , play and throw and whatever you guys call that . I've nowhere to vent my anger to except for Blogger and Facebook . And when i want you guys to cheer me up and yet you all dont even seems to give a fucking damn so i might as well just forget it . Happy moment always last for a few hours and then life gave me fucked up time , im tired of overcoming all those obstacles and circumstances . Because no matter how hard i tried to make it through , life is still as fucked up as ever .
And i dont know why , im forever failed in my studies , i've got no motivation to do work or study for my N level . Im still slacking away likea bitch , while my dearest babe working so hard towards N level . And this is also why i prefer outside world than school life , fml .
Im not boasting but lots of people told me that im getting mature in terms of my thinking , i know the way i act still likea kid . LOL . But its all thanks to Elaine.T and Adeline.O , my two dearest sister , they brain-washed me for 1year plus , telling me whats right and whats wrong , asked me to be nice to my parents and must start to think because im 17 this year . Im still trying ...
Somehow , i miss my brown hair ..
Anw , anyone wanna see my drunk face ? :P
CUTE HOR ! :D Hehehee .
♥ Thursday, January 20, 2011
I made the choice to finally go because i can't stand this pain anymore, it's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile .
Finally got the time to post and i know my blog is rotting . I dont care anw , im so fucked up now because of my foursquare , suddenly not working anymore on fb -.-
Just back from my hair treatment not long ago and im feeling so tired , lucky there's laptop here for me to do everything on my iPhone at all once .
D&T seriously sucks big time , waste so much of my time . Im lack of sleep because of D&T too !
I dyed my hair for a few times and i realise there's issin't any much differences -.- So forget it .
Im really really very excited for Chinese New Year to arrive , not because of red packets but the atmosphere like nice ! Last year i didnt enjoy because of some problems and this year im gonna eat alot ! Hehe .
Fml , i hate guys who likes to trampled over girls and treat them like toy .
♥ Sunday, January 09, 2011
School , Stress , N level .
Sorry for not posting my blog for sucha fucking long time because im waiting for some photos and also my laptop was being confiscated . Others had alrd wish everybody MerryChristmas and HappyNewYear while im still stuck at 2010 till now its my first post on 2011 . LOL . Ok so damn sorry about it .
School started not long ago and now im sick :/ Nice . First day of school i had hair check and i was being caught and asked to dye back , went over to Emmeline's place to dye and realise there's not much different . Second day i was being sent home and now my hair is so damn black that i look like some china dog , LOLOLOL . So i make a big fuss about it to my mother because i really really cant stand the blackness of my hair and i burst out crying , throwing temper and stuffs until my mother cant take it and promise me to let me dye back . To think back , i , myself cant believe that i actually cried over my hair , see how much i love my hair . LOLOL !
Emmeline told me that i should really cut down on checking my phone or texting continuously in class because N level is coming real fast and i've got to buck up on every of my subjects . I almost retain last year , teachers are the one who pulled me up ..
So currently im transferring stuffs into my iPhone and i hate it because i know nothing aboout iPhone and i didnt know that its so troublesome *Suaku* I suddenly forgot how to make ringtone , i anyhow click it and finally im done after trying for 4 times . Hehe .
Specially for my grandmother; I went to visit the doctor ytd with my grandmother , and because i feel so teribble that i attitude and raise my voice infront of other people at my grandmother . And my grandmother forgot to brought her ez-link card out so she asked me to take bus to home and she herself walked all the way back . She didnt scold me or anything , and yet she still take care of me , asking me whether im hungry , feed me medicine and taking water for me , brewed herbal tea for me and coming into my room once in awhile checking whether im still having fever . Im so sorry , from the bottom of my heart . Im really sorry ..
I feel so giddy now after having all disgusting medicine . And btw , i chance upon Edison when im on the way to take bus home after seeing doctor ytd . He saw my unglam loh ! HAHAHA , paiseh sia . So he looked at my pale face and told me that he send me home cause later i faint as i feel giddy and i cant stand properly . LOL . I know im weak :( Thanks uh .
:( Shall go and take a rest now . Ohya , and a Happy (very)Belated New Year . LOL .