♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
I'll be strong and hold back my tears, because i know no matter how hard i cry , this love is not coming back anymore.
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♥ Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I'll be strong and hold back my tears , because i know no matter how hard i cry , this love is not coming back anymore .
Guess my blog is real dead , i hadn't been posting for days . School starts , and im gonna wake up very early again . I love my current time table , because i will be dismiss from school before 1pm everyday except for Monday , but thats only for this week :( Anw , first day of school i didnt really pay attention because i was having my gastric problems , and i sleep through the whole of 4periods . But today went pretty well , i paid attention and copied notes as i promised my father that i will be studying well . Intend to stayed back with Emmeline in class to study after school after everybody went off , but the moment we talked about some stuffs and we just went off without studying a single thing ._.
Went over to eat with Emmeline and Junwen as she craving for Laksa since ytd . LOL . After eating met up with Darren and co. , slacked and stuffs . Emmeline asked me "Are you okay ?" for five times today , LOL . But Emmeline , im really fine , dont worry and its not your fault , i dont blame you at all alright ? :)
I just found out that some people has nothing better to do by just telling others about me . Ohyea , so what im being such a fucktard previously ? Doesn't mean that im still the same now right ? People do change , please dont fucking stick with your "Leopard doesn't change its sports" mindset . Oh well , im getting agitated by you alright , because i've learnt my lesson and you dont so you can do or say whatever you like . Whats with your "You are no difference from her ." ? Guess i didnt tell you whats really going on uh ? I shall post it here now and i dont give a damn whether you still reading my blog anot . Firstly , you assume that im just making myself getting bitchy (Just a word to describe the whole matter by myself , so dont tell me that you didnt said that if you happen to pass by my blog) . Secondly , you said that im not being honest . Okay , i agree with the second one but not the first one , you know why ? Because i didnt , thats just my own circle of friends , just because you read my blog and you jump into conclusion ? But hey , dont tell me you dont talk to guys ? Just that i've got more guy friends than you do so you can accused me without knowing anything ? Wow , what a nice conclusion you've got . I've stopped every single thing alrd and yet you wanna rack up the past again ? I thought that you're quite ok because i find that everything you said about me was true , but now i realise that you're no difference from the past me . Everybody will have to go through different obstacles , and i went through mine , i've learnt my lesson . So when you will be learning yours ?
I dont know how to face you now , i admit that im very angry in the first place . But after i know that you're having some difficulties and what have you done , i felt guilty . I know i've said this for upteen times but , its really from the bottom of my heart yea . Maybe you're still angry with me right now , what i can tell you is , im not angry anymore and im very sorry . Im not blaming you but , try to understand how i feel ? You quarrel with my good friend and im stuck in the middle , i cant possibly leave her alone and i cant do the same to you too so i have to choose one . And just to let you know , to me , friends come first . Not saying that you're not important , both are important to me but , i went through some stuffs that you dont know . I've learnt to understand why do friends come first , im sorry if i said anything that hurts you . I'll try to give in whenever i can , somebody told me , "it takes two hands to clap" and i agree with it . Im sorry .
♥ Friday, June 18, 2010
Love is not suppose to be easy , its supposed to be worth it .
One day you'll love me like the way I loved you . One day you'll think of me like the way I thought of you . One day you'll cry for me like the way I cried for you . But no matter what , you'll still stay in my heart .
Im back ! :) Anw , reborned my hair ytd ._. Still looks the same except that i change my hair parting -.- Went for facial treatment today , totally cmi . Pain like dont know what :/ Feel like shouting out but ... LOL . After that cab over to BukitBatok to meet Boonyong then walked over to Goodview to meet Emmeline , slacked and Yiyang came . They went to eat , and Emmeline was playing around like a fool . LOLOL ! Went over to 4head , went up to Boonyong's house , Emmeline ... nonsense girl . Slacked and cab home , im currently having my gastric again -.- Damn it .
♥ Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I can't escape the thought of you .
Sometimes , having a crush is much better than being in love . Cause you know , you wont get hurt .
♥ Monday, June 14, 2010
The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're still alive .
Contentment doesn't exist in real world , thats why we learned to dream .
Didnt post for so long alrd ! :/ Hmm , actually nothing much . Finally get to meet up with Emmeline , we owe each other one town shopping and ghost movie ! :D But but , sorry Emmeline , for that day :( Parents going oversea tmr ! Happy again :x Was busy with my fb just now , flooded by MarcusTeo , JonathanZeng & Weixiang ! They broke my record ! Heheh :D Actually im posting for the sake of posting -.- School going to start soon in 2weeks :/ Fast right ? :( But i dont think im going to school for the first day , confirm attire check -.- When can i get my Burberry wallet ?!?! :( Mummy ! :@
The record broke by MarcusTeo , JonathanZeng & WeiXiang ! 221comments :/ Click to enlarge ! :D
♥ Tuesday, June 08, 2010
When you really love someone , you trust that person completely but dont put all your trust on them unless that person is really trustworthy.
Everyday that goes by it seems like I discover something new about you to love it's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life, you touch me in a way no one else ever has and gave me so many reasons to love you.
Happy Birthday Elaine.T ! ;)
Didnt post for a long time :/ Nothing to post about actually , same routine everyday . Went out at 6plus ytd to Bugis to meet Elaine , after her work we went for steamboat with Adeline and her friend called Joycelyn , didnt eat alot :/ Cab home with Jocycelyn . Reached home at 1plus , chat on phone with boyf till 5plus and sleep . Went out to meet Boonyong today , went to cdans to watch them bowling awhile and cab home . Actually i dont have any mood to post at all , but because my blog looks very very dead so im here to update . Okay , done , bye .
The steamboat we ate ytd :)
♥ Thursday, June 03, 2010
Loving someone never needed any explanation .
Everyday that goes by it seems like I discover something new about you to love it's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life , you touch me in a way no one else ever has and gave me so many reasons to love you .
Just came back home and im tired :( I felt so irritating having my cramps ! I woke up at 11plus today by my irritating brother shouting here and there early in the morning like some crazy kid . Continue lying on my bed till 1plus and i went to bathe , waited for Adeline to come over my house with my KFC :) Ate and went out , trained&bused to Batok to meet Boyf , slacked and etc. Cab home with MarcusTeo , and now im currently waiting for my father to buy MosBurger for me . Keep saying i wanna diet , in the end all my meal today was fast food -.- And , i felt so fucked up with my life now :(
Emmeline ,
I hope you see this when you come to my blog . I hasn't seen you for days alrd , i miss you :( I know whatever happen now is making your life tough , bet that you aren't feeling good right now uh . But no matter what i will still be here for you , you can call me up and pour out everything you want , vent your anger on me and stuffs . As long as you feel better , everything's fine right ? I know you dont like to stay here , so lets hope that the result will be what you want , though i dont want you to leave . I know you've been hurt again and again , dissapoinment over and over , im sorry that i cant cheer you up and physically be there for you . But remember what i said , my ears is always here for you :) Cheer up , (L)
♥ Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Loving is not owning that we can let it go .
If the truth was told instead of a lie , then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much .
Stayed up whole night ytd :/ Im freaking tired now , wtf . Hmm , parents oversea and i've been sleeping late for these two days , using laptop for the whole night for fb doing nothing by staring at fb homepage . LOL ! And ytd night , me and JiaEn was so bored that both of us went to play Audition . Totally joke , then half way through he went to meet his friends and asked me to wait for him to be back and play with me again . Quite tired while waiting , text him telling him i wanna take a nap and text me back when he reach home . But he refused to let me sleep -.- so waited for him and continue to play after he reached home . And the more we play , the more bored we get :/ So forget it , lied on my bed till i fall asleep at 6plus . Being woke up by boyf's msg at 9plus , replied and went back to sleep . Woke up awhile to fb , and continue to sleep till 7pm :/ Okay , i know i sleep very long . LOL ! Parents coming back today ! And i can go out soon , i miss Emmeline alot :/ Like very long didnt see her :(