♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
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♥ Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I dont want to leave you .
Backkkkkk ! :D Finally my com is fix ! Cant use internet ytd for whole day ! My maid go press smth on the broadband plug -.- And i go anyhow press and fix it :P Pro right ? LOL ! Wahaha ! xD Woke up at 5.30am today , called Kristine but no pick up , so went to bathe and etc. In the end Kristine said she tired dont wanna go school , so called Baby accompany me :x I know i very troublesome -.- , i make him late when he can meet his friends and be school in time . Sorry ): Anw , went to back gate and wait for Gina and Yuanxin . Walk back to school together , get form . Baby straight walk back to class without giving anybody sign the form , Win liao ._. But we had to go to office -.- , kena checked bag and everything . Do i look like a girl that will smoke ? :D:D:D:D No right no right ? :P He opened our bag , took out our pencil case and everything said here can keep few sticks there can keep few sticks -.- Wth . Gina's hair tio caught ): , when her hair get caught i was like omg , faster sign mine , i want go out of this office ! LOL -.- But if get caught and i cant take exam tmr ? ): Anw , mine only under sunlight then can see :D Reached class , faster chiong art prepwork . Then very tired , so sleep awhile till recess . Ate and then went to concourse , awhile went back to class had maths lesson . Continue with my art , after that very boring . Dont wanna do alrd , played with Gina . She kept on the fart sound in class , on max with 3 phone somemore . I laughing like mad , laugh till no sound come out . Damn funny , one part sounds like laosai . LOL ! Then mother tongue , sleep also , teacher no come . After that woke up reply msg , sleep back again . Keith said i woke up cause i got wet dream -.- , made me laugh and then i cant sleep back . LOL ! Went to bookshop bought something and went to toilet . Met Baby outside his class , he hor , skip class leh , tsktsk . Then when walking to find him, that relief teacher came and scolded us why so long -.- LOL , explained to her , she dont understand english . LOL ! I talk to her till pek chek , shouted at her . She still dont understand -.- , lazy talk to her , leave it for Yuanxin . LOL ! Meet baby awhile jiu go back alrd . Geography lesson , need do some work . Gina like sot like that , keep saying what war , throw sand and everything . B'cause of copying geography , she said like that can remember easier . At there noisy dao hor , my handwriting CMI . Lol , i keep laughing non stop -.- Then released at 2.25pm , i saw him again :P Cab to lot with Gina , Jane and Darren . Ate and then went back home , cleared and pack everything in my bag for tmr's exam . Sleep awhile , msged tuition teacher said i dont wanna have tuition today due to my stomach cramp , so damn tired ): Sigh , imissyou D:
Somehow i thought that when we meet are better than msging . I felt so happy when im with you , i felt so loved when im with you , i can forget every unhappiness matter when im with you . But i dont know why , there's smth telling me that i cant make it to the end . Im afraid of losing you , afraid of you might be leaving me after some time . You know i dont want to lose you , but still , i felt smth missing . I get so hyper even when i saw you in school , i will look at you till you dissapear from my view . Even im standing far end and look at you , i would still get happy and smile to myself . I hate saying goodbye to you when we meet , how i wish the time could stop forever when we're together . I want to stay like this forever , i want to be in your arms forever ): iloveyoux3
♥ Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Somehow i still felt empty ):
Back to post (: Woke up late today , and is super late ! I woke up at 6am :x And then when i wanted to check my phone what time is it , i saw 8missed call and 2msgs . Omg lah :x Baby call me dao buay tahan go back sleep -.- Chiong wake up , called Kristine and Baby to wake up also . Then rushed to bathe and etc. , stomach inside e bone suddenly very pain , for dont know what reason . I cant bend down all these -.- But no choice had to bear with it , msged Kristine . She manage to take the same bus as me :D After that bused to school , lucky no late :P Reached school , meet Gina and others . Blah blah blah , went back to class after that . Had PW lesson , i all the way slacking , and msging . Then mother tongue , cause chinese teacher had to labour the baby soon , free period also :D Too tired then sleep , after that got the damn lame fire drill . Say what canteen got fire , all go to field , in the end kena bomb . Say what this fire drill is to help us release our stress -.- Stupid school , sleep till so shiok then wake me up . Then recess , so many people lor ._. Ate abit , went to concourse took picture , whole TXFFL picture :D Somehow abit like family photo :P Heheh , thats what one of them said , i forgotten who alrd . Then sit at concourse , awhile went back to class . Had science test , i think i gonna fail it . I leave almost all blank at last page , die alrd lah ): Sigh , then music lesson , watching Adam played guitar , so damn nice :D Then abit boring, go watch Kristine played piano , she play till i feel like crying . LOLOL ! Went back class after that , had VE lesson , then English lesson , discused about exam thing . Omg , stress up ): Release at 1.50pm , wait for baby at concourse , sit with Eunice . Linda teach me History , i gong diao -.- Baby released alrd then come find me , but i stay in school awhile more :D Awhile jiu go outside school meet him , bused back home . Slack awhile then go up , reached home suddenly feel like eating lots of things -.- Blah , bathed and on com . And my desktop sucks to core ):
Why ? Why do i still felt empty in my heart ? Its like smth had missing , and i dont know whats that . I've gotten your heart , and your love . I know its not about stressed up or whatever . I just felt that smth had missing ): Sigh , how ?
Why ? Why do i still felt empty in my heart ? Its like smth had missing , and i dont know whats that . I've gotten your heart , and your love . I know its not about stressed up or whatever . I just felt that smth had missing ): Sigh , how ?
♥ Monday, September 28, 2009
♥ 爱一直存在
Back back back ! Just woke up , so damn tired ): Anw , went to school quite late today . Woke up at 6 , but cause i was so troublesome , made Kristine so fed up with my things :x Bused to Kristine house to wait for her , then around 7plus going 8 then went school . But no late :P , saw Yuanxin when reaching school gate , so went in together . Singing national anthem , i keep on talking to Yuanxin , was so high at that time lah . Hmm , after that went back to class . Passed smth to baby , and then went for PE lesson . Dont feel like having PE , so told teacher stomach not feeling well -.- But had so much fun with others ! As in clique (: Play till very hot+sweat ! LOL ! Went back to class , history lesson . Then recess , after that sit at concourse . And Kristine is so super high -.- I saw him again ! :P Okay , im crazy . Back to class , Kristine damn high when reach class , keep shouting like oh-my-godness ! Made us laugh like dont know what xD Had literature test for one period , then maths lesson . Did some work after that went to sleep , after maths was HomeEcon , free period :D So talk and talk , release after that . Meet baby , others went to library study . Bused home after that , meet mother at inter . Then baby sent me home , and my mother ah , so naggy leh -.- Slack and slack , 4.30 went home . Reached home , bathe and etc. Slowly then fall asleep , stomach and head ache . LOL ! Waiting for his msg lah ):
Buay tahan , i want go toilet liao :D Bye !
I love the way you hug me , the way you play and craps with me :D iloveyou !
♥ Sunday, September 27, 2009
TWC's ♥
Back to post ! Had tuition today , prepare and etc. After tuition went to lot to help my mother , there so freaking hot+boring can ! Totally cannot tahan leh -.- Keep on walking around , sitting there like toot -.- LOL ! So boring lah , then got one girl , act till like whole inter her house like that . Talk so loud -.- , keep showing her that buay song face . LOL ! Talk to my mother so rude+guailan . LOLOL ! Ate and sit down there again . After that around 7plus saw Jane and Kristine , i damn super high , finally got people can pei me talk . Jane met her sister and then go first , Kristine acompany me till i need go home :D We chat lots of things there , went in to lot to buy smth . Around 9plus go home , father drove her back . Reached home , bathe and everything . On com , and this stupid com make till me super angry . On alrd keep shut up down , for more than 10times leh ! -.- Tmr going school ! Weee :P Anw , had to go and change my bag alrd . Finaly -.- Bye (:
iloveyou :D
♥ Saturday, September 26, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA.C !
Back to post ! Woke up at 10plus today , bathe and etc. Went to CCK first , then FE . Im so so boring at there lah , around 6plus father and siblings came , they both super noisy leh . Then went to find Eugenie to chat , after that around 7-8plus went over to Bugis . Listen to Elaine joke around with my brother and mother -.- , accompany her go buy food for my father . After that saw Gina and Kristine , super high leh :D Awhile later saw Keith and his friends , called him , he dont wanna look at us -.- Only his friends at there craps . Chat with K & G till they need go back , Gina today so chio ! xD Anw , will be going to CCK tmr to help out after tuition (: Gtg , bye :D
Happy Birthday Gina.C ! :D:D:D:D:D MeLoveYou ! Wahaha ! xD Same age as me liao leh , honoured right ? Lol , i not yet buy your present eh :x , so i owe you one present okokokokokokok ? :D Thanks for lending me your ear when i've got lots of stupid complains ! Being there with me when im sad :P May all your wish come true ! Loves (: P.S. , im not pig head lah -.-
♥ Friday, September 25, 2009
Stay Like This Forever
Back to post ! :D Went to school alone , again -.- That Kristine keep ps me one leh , LOL ! Then waited for others at mama shop , Kristine came later . Had history test , totally cannot make it -.- Then english , did some work together with Gina . Recess after that , totally no mood for today ._. CME and then literature . Went to inter to meet mother , after that went to Kristine house make cupcakes . CMI also -.- , so change to make other things instead . Kristine keep go down buy things , come up again , then go down again , for like 4times . Lol :x I like want to tear Kristine's house like that leh -.- I dont know how wash bowl , the soap anyhow splash on ther floor . LOL ! Damn ps leh -.- And also chat with Kristine lots of things about him . Around 6.45pm went home . Bathe and then chat on phone till 12 plus , now posting (: Will going FE later to help out , wth . Say till this pek chek -.- Forget it , going to sleep liao :D Bye !
♥ Thursday, September 24, 2009
How i wish the time could stop at that moment
Back back ! Sorry for not posting the past two days when im back , cause came back home quite late and im tired :x . Anw , the the the picture ontop , the one i make up till like oh-my-god one hor , is cause going cousin's wedding , so my cousin ask make-up artist help me make up and hair stylist perm my hair -.- I dont like curly hair . LOL ! Damn mature right ? :P Anw , was quite boring there , i cant contact my clique ): Lol , i know they miss me alot -.- Blah . Had school today , bused to school with Kristine , going rain in the morning . Bokmay didnt come for school . Then art lesson first period , chiong all the way to finish my art work . After that mother tongue lesson , so tired that all of us sleep except for me till recess time . Steven say is a miracle that i didnt sleep -.- After recess was science , then DnT , after that maths . I brought lots of books home due to examination ): So freaking heavy lor , bused back home with Yuanxin and him , slack awhile with her as she need to go to her friend house near mine . Awhile later Yuanxin went off , then i also go off . Reach home go in room straight away sleep -.- You wanna know how lazy and dirty i am ? LOLOL ! I heavent even take out my socks , heavent bathe , and the books i brought back i put on the floor -.- Lol . Gina's birthday coming ! :D Exam coming next thursday , stress lah ): Parents back alrd , wth -.- Shall post tmr , maybe . Bye .
♥ Saturday, September 19, 2009
I dont feel that love as much as before .
Im posting just to inform you all that i wont be in Singapore for three days , so dont msg or call me , i will be back on tuesday around 9pm (: I wont private my blog , anything just leave a tag at my tagboard . Will reply when im back alright , i will be going Malaysia for my cousin's wedding . So wont be going school on tuesday , Clique clique ! Must miss me eh :P But from tmr 12pm onwards , dont msg me alrd (: Thanks alot ! :D
WithLoves , ♥; ZHENRU !
♥ Thursday, September 17, 2009
Totally forget about this relationship
Back back back :D Didnt post for ytd , no time post . Had a super sucky mood yesterday , tuition showing that buay song face , find excuse went to toilet and tears just rolled down . Omg :x , i dont know why ytd mood suddenly like that -.- Morning go school still okay , till afternoon , mood straight away changed ._. Nvm , anw , ytd went to IMM with clique for LJS , then cab back home , 7 had tuition (:
Today school was still okay , bused to school alone , as Kristine woke up late . Went straight to class , had art and Kristine came . After that mother tongue , then recess . Rain awhile ): , science lesson after that , &' Gina damn crazy lah , keep counting her mole -.- Ask me count also , haha ! I got less than 10 :P She more than 30 leh . LOLOL ! Damn stupid lah , too boring go do this -.- DnT after that , draw and cut my Z out :D Heheh , but not yet make finish -.- Nvm , maths lesson , had test . Only know how do few qns ): Fail for sure liao lah , sigh . School end at 2.25 , bused to lot for lunch with clique :D Met Edison awhile also , kfc for lunch ! xD And kristine is so super high , make all of us laugh like crazy . I eat finish the bused home , others went to study . Now at home so boring lah ): I want people entertain me !!! Ah , nvm , had to go watch tv . Bye :D
I tear those photos in school , with a so-not-bearing mood . I feel like crying , but i cant . I promise myself , to forget you completely . Im not going to think of those past anymore , im going to lead my life happily . All i need now is friends , cant believe that you can love another person so fast . What a hongster you are , i dont care you saw this post or not , im still gonna post it . Wth -.- Hongster .
♥ Tuesday, September 15, 2009
SUCKY DAY !
Today sucks to the core lah , morning wake up totally no mood , dont even know why . Prepapred and trained to school alone , as Kristine woke up late or whatever . Then reach school , almost late , then emo emo for almost whole day ._. Recess still abit ok , then after recess sleep in class for around 1 period . Can say almost whole clique of girls abit not happy today , due to smth . Then after school Kristine and others went to study , bused back home . And then smth happened again , anyhow say me -.- I didnt even do anything lah . Forget it , shall not elaborate too much on this , i hate today , tmr having tuition again . Always so stress when exam's coming . Sigh , gtg now . Bye .
We're only acting infront of him , really ):
♥ Monday, September 14, 2009
没有你的感觉真的很难过
Had school today , met Kristine at inter around 7plus , and then bused to school tgt . Kristine today's face is like omg :/ , just one word to describe her expression , fierce :x Ah , lets not talk about this (: She's okay after school . Actually today's lesson was quite slack ? Except for History , there's open book quiz . Hmm , then recess , blah blah blah . After that english , then maths , there's smth happen at maths lesson . Super funny , someone in my class went to find some phone numbers on the newpapers , those advertise number , and then this classmate of mine called , and asked whether it supply sex anot , and where can supply sex . Omg lah , i keep laughing , play till abit crazy leh :/ Then later home-econ . Nothing much today , bused back home , while Kristine and others went to Jurong . And im so boring right now ): Just finish chatting on phone with Jiahui :D Dont really have mood today :x , i dont know why . Im not happy today -.- Hope tomorrow will be better (: I dont really have the mood to study , although im practising my maths and science , but i dont wanna fail my english ): I dont want retain -.- Okay , i know actions speaks louder than words . I know how say , but i cant do it lah ! Arghh , forget it . had to listen more in class alrd -.-
我不敢去面对这段感情 . 不过 , 慢慢地,我已经习惯有你陪在我身边的感觉,没有你的感觉,真的很难过 .
♥ Sunday, September 13, 2009
7th ;13th's love , no more .
Today will be the 7th month , if we are still together (:
Laugh , alright , actually there's nothing to post for today :/
Had tuition today , and then after tuition chat on phone till now , so boring lor please ): Tomorrow school reopen alrd ! Weehee xD I heavent did finish all the school work eh , omg :x But i just finished home-econ's project , now left history :x Hell , i dont know how to do that -.- Hmm , will be posting tmr , maybe ? Gotta go now (: Tmr got school eh , need sleep early ! So goodgirl xDNah , im not going to stead with whoever for the time being , im sorry that i've rejected your patch .
♥ Saturday, September 12, 2009
因为你 , 我不想爱了, 也不敢再爱了.
I dont know why , you're the one i used to love the most , and now you're the one who hurt me the most . Is this the so called retribution you wanna give me ? Just because i hurt you deeply ? Nah , i dont care anymore , because of that kpo particular person who open my blog for my mother , i had enough . Who will so kpo open my blog for mother to see ? -.- So boliao can , and who the hell tell my mother what somebody fetch me home ? How come you people are so kpo , nothing better to do issit ? Go earn more money lah , mind your own business can ? Arghh , nvm , forget it . I just kept quiet , and all i get is always scolding and scolding . What exactly have i done ? I hate that crying feeling at night , nobody is there for me at night when i cried . I felt so hurt ytd , people saying me cheap , mother scolding me cause of that kpo . I want to be her good daughter , i want to be good girl to everyone , i believe in myself , i told myself not to cry , be strong , yea , i didnt cry infront of you . I tried not to cry when my mother scolded me , but no matter how many times i told her , she still continue . I didnt cry when she said that , i cried when she rather listen to that kpo talk than me . Is her daughter really cant be trusted so much ? I admit , i did lied alot last time , but now i changed . I told you the truth , i dont want to lie anymore , im really tired . But why you people keep create trouble for me ? I finally gain some of my parents's trust , and because of that , i lost their trust again . I failed to be their daughter , i failed to gain back their trust , i failed to make them happy , i failed everything . My mother told me that my friends are more important than her , is because no matter what i say , she wont comfort me , yet keep adding salt into my wound . Friends would lend me their shoulder , telling me what to do . Why cant my mother did the same thing ? Why ? Btw , to that kpo person , if you saw this post of my blog , please tell my mother , im not the daughter that she thinks , i really did try to change my way . Ah , laugh , why am i asking you to help me ? You're just a kpo , telling my parents what i post about , this is my blog , cant you see the profile there ? My blog , my say , my rights . I write anything i want to , so stop being a kpo and mind your own business . Cant believe there's such people outside there -.- I know if you saw this , you will go tell my mother what i wrote again , lame ! I got what friends , with who , also not your problem . I know what im doing , i dont need you people to complain anything to my mother . Sigh , nvm , say all you want . I just dont understand why , parents , again .
我不知道原来我在你心目中是个这样的人 .
我想念有你在我身边的感觉 . 我很想再去爱 , 但是我却忘了因为爱 , 我受了伤 . 我想现在还不是时候 , 我没有把握 , 我很害怕我又伤了另一个爱我的人 . 对不起 .
♥ Friday, September 11, 2009
Im no longer yours .
Back to post (:
Woke up late today , should be 7.30am wake up , but i woke up at 9plus . So prepared faster and went out . Should be meeting Kristine first , but she too tired and went back to sleep . Meet Gina , Jane and Bokmay at Jurong library . Then Yuanxin came next , went down to the cafe and eat , eat dao i feel like vomiting -.- Hmm , then Kristine came after that . Take bus to IMM , went to mini toons , and then ate and took pictures . Kristine kept making us laugh , then later somebody came . Went back to library after that , did some art things . I write dao very pek chek leh -.- , i write liao then keep write wrong , write again then write wrong . LOL . Then Kristine , Jane and that person wanna go home alrd , so left the four of us . Chit chat , and then around 6plus go home . And there's one particular person , go open my blog for my mother to see , and told her alot of things -.- Wth . Nvm , then now mother keep asking me ._. Whatever then . But also quite good lah , LOL . My blog famous till like that . LOLOL ! Okay , im bhb -.- But , i still wont private my blog , that person want let my mother see , go ahead then , i dont care . Want see jiu see , i didnt do anything wrong , im just writing down what i did daily . Like that also must tell -.- Lol leh . Nvm , forget it .
Im sorry , im not betraying you , im just saying out the truth . Nvm , if you think im cheap , then im cheap , if you think im betraying you , then just think that i betrayed you . Think whatever you want , i dont give a damn anymore . Sigh , i didnt know that i had this "cheap" impression in your mind .
♥ Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Everything has come to the end .
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Eveything has end , i've broke up with him alrd (: Ha , i still got the time eh :x 100909 ;1210 am . LOL ! Nice right ? Okay , im pervert -.- I hope we only kept those good memories in us alright ? We can still be friends , im glad that you didnt cry straight away after you saw the msg , this shows that you somehow alrd given up and knew this will happen . Lets just forget those bad things and be happy , i will always remember , that you're my best boyf i ever had :D Hmm , will be posting later , now 1am alrd :x , will be going FE later .
Back back ! Parents drove me to FE , and then had lunch , hmm , boring . Called people to chat quite long :x To kill my time at there , around 8.30pm trained home . So tired lurh , tmr need early wake up . To go library study , super guai :D Alright , im going to reply tags and relink people alrd ! Bye :D
Im sorry , i hope you can find a better one than me . I know i've hurt you deeply , at first i cant bear too . I took up my courage to sent that message to you , when i was typing the message , i teared , i miss the way you hug me , and the way you treat me . I cant bear to leave you actually , but what done is done . There's no turning back , you told me you will be waiting for me to patch back with you . I dont think is possible , i dont know . I cant believe that , we've come so far , and yet im the one who broke it . Im really sorry , but i didnt delete all those photos we took tgt , i will took it out sometimes and look at it , somehow miss your kisses . Laugh , but its over , nothing to be sad about . Thanks for caring me for these few months , loving me and cherish me so much . Takecare (:
♥ Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Its fading , no more .
Its been so long since i post :x , cause i was busy , and nowadays reach home at night . Has been working and helping parents at FE these few days . Then at night trained back home , having tuition later . Omg , i hate tutition ): Im so boring now , i rather help parents work than staying at home ! Im currently want to download a song , anyone care to help ? ): Msn me ! Holiday gonna end soon , so fast , and exam's coming on 1st oct . Must work super hard alrd , i dont want retain ! Ah , maybe friday gonna meet clique :D Do project ! Guai right ? :P But i also need a wild shopping now ): I want buy new shirt , and i dont know why i always had nothing to post -.- My tagboard are alive for these few days . Thanks to all my friends :D I heavent even touch my tuition homework yet :/ Blah , i dont care alrd . I go do hoomework now :D Bye (:
How ? Its fading alrd , people saying me changing , changing to a vulgar girl thats not me anymore . I hope you can accept the facts , im really trying very hard to get back the feeling . I think of the memories we had last time , i did teared . But after that , im okay , okay as in take it as nothing happen . Yes, i know you done alot of things for me , you make sure that im happy , dont get bullied by other people . Bought the things i want for me , i can say that you're the first boyf thats so good to me i ever had . Seriously , i dont want to break straight away with you , cause i wanted to find back the feeling towards you . Everything will be an end if i break up with you , i need some time to think about our relationship . I've think through over it , even my clique are helping you , they gave me time to find back the feeling and asked me dont break with you . I listen to them and gave myself a chance , and somehow i thought that i will love you back as before . But i realise i cant , the feeling had totally gone . One of my friend told me , sometimes my feeling is not gone , just that i think is gone . When something really happen to you , i will get worried , and this shows that the feeling is still there , if i dont care about it , means its really gone . But what incident took place for this week ? Nothing , totally nothing . I was thinking what if you had anything happen , will i get worried or not . I dont miss you as much like before , in fact , you got msg me or not is still the same . We dont have any topic to start with , you told me you cried alot , i felt guilty . I've hurt another person that loves me so much , i've alrd hurt my parents , i once hurt a guy in my life . And till now i still hate him , i dont want anybody to get hurt because of me anymore . Im sorry but i had to hurt you , im not worth it , you did so much yet i treat you like this . Sigh , i dont know what can i do now . I cant comfort you , all you want is me not to leave you . I can tell you that , i've broke my promise to you . I cant kept my promise , i cant be trust anymore . I disappointed you , let you down , i know the wound i gave you was deep . Its needs time to heal it , but after that we still can be friends , right ? I have no reason or rights to avoid you , i know what i said to you now cant solve anything . But think over it , im not worth for you .
♥ Saturday, September 05, 2009
I will try my very best to find it back and changed , thanks , clique .
Back to post , tagboard dying . Com keep need restart , so pissed off . Woke up at 9.30am today , prepare and wait for father to be back home and fetch me to Bugis . Finally father back , took so long :x Then drove me to Bugis , almsot forgot that Gina , Bokmay and Jane going Bugis today too . They came find me after i reached , Gina bought smth from my shop , then they accompanied me go buy food . After that back to shop , awhile later Gina cant find the thing she want then come back find me again . Lol ! Hmm , then Eunice , Chantel and Linda came too , they suddenly came in called me . Lol :x , then after that jiu boring alrd . Smth happening happened , shall not elaborate too much , but after that okay alrd . Almost whole day smsing , around 9plus trained home , 10plus reached home . Actually this post quite long , but due to my stupid com , i had to retype everything again , and i forgot what i type just now -.-
Clique , thanks , and im sorry . I try not to scold vulgarities as much as before , i try to msg him as much as i can . I promised , i wont contact him for one week . But after one week , if i cant find back the feeling , hope you all dont blame me for my decision . Even if the other party didnt enter my life , i would still be the same like now , really . Sometimes i felt tiring , i had to lied all these . Seriously , even if he didnt enter my life , my feeling for him will still fade . Im trying to find back now (: Sorry for causing so much problems . Thanks , clique .
Im sorry , but i had to do this . I promised my clique , i wont contact you for one week alrd .
♥ Friday, September 04, 2009
Im sorry , but i will try to find it back .
Back to post , so long didnt post alrd . Lazy on com and was busying with school and friends . Yesterday and Wednesday had the what Adam Khoo's workshop , first day was quite fun , second quite boring :x And i cried on the second day , too touching lah . Almost same situation as mine lor . Like wtf , im actually crying when people telling me about this , and first time i cannot control my tears . Alot people cried too , after that bused to lot with Gina and Bokmay , bought smth and then went home . Today went to school as per normal ? Kristine , Bokmay and Yuanxin didnt attend to school , left me Gina and Jane . Hmm , had History test , open book test , once in a life time . HAHA ! Easy , then english test , also quite easy for me . After that recess , damn hungry , didnt eat dinner last night . Er , raining like siao-s ? But its okay lah , after that had what Learning Festival , went to one of the sec4 class , talk talk talk , then concourse , watching Gina and Pepper mint play dont know what thing -.- Yuxuan also there :D After that to Hall , then they say we come wrong place , we should be going to Library -.- So went up to Library instead , Edison and Dina was there presenting something . And today after recess uh , went back to class . Then Jane also came in , Steven was at there bullying Jane and Gina . Damn funny , so me and Gina keep on shouting into his ear , as our voice was like oh-so-what-the-fuck . HAHA ! Steven's ear pain eh :P , then me and Gina said we both shout into his ear again together , was chasing him , Gina shouted only . I didnt manage to shout together with her , but i was laughing away . Then Taufiq and Zuhairi suddenly told me my ear very small . Like what-the-fuck eh , then keep on saying small ear small ear . So i pull Taufiq's ear , HAHAH ! Then went we at Library for the Learning Festival , Haikal , Fahim , Taufiq and others dont know who , drew smth on the laptop that Edison and Dina gonna use it for presentation . They drew one pig face , and then arrow-ed it and wrote my name , like wth leh -.- Whole day like kena bully . LOL ! Then after school , trained to lot with Gina , Jane and Steven . Bokmay came after that , then went for lunch at KFC , dont feel like eating , no appetite nowadays . But i still eat , didnt eat finish , left alot -.- Hmm , Gina and Jane gonng meet Kristine . Steven went home , me also went home , taking same bus as Bokmay as she want to play Bball near my house there :D Reach home , straight away sleep , from 2plus sleep till around 7 . LOL , damn tired . And my brother not feeling well ): He vomited ah , omfg lor . But nvm , he's sleeping soundly now :D Hmm , gtg :D
Btw , Happy Advance Birthday to Dina , G and somebody (:
Im sorry , i dont know why will i become like this either . I dont mean it , but rest assured , i will try my best to find the feelings back . I know i've hurt you , but seriously , i dont mean it . Everything had changed , i know , its my fault . My promise to you are meant to be broken , i cant keep my promise . Whatever is it , all i do is try to get the feelings back (: